Missing you...almost seven months

I can't believe it has been almost seven months since I lost you sweet girl. I miss you terribly and long to feel your presence next to me still. I think of you everyday, I cry for you everyday. My life, our house, it does not feel complete without you in it. Nicolas talks of you everyday. The sweetest things. he wishes he could build a ladder all the way to heaven to visit you. He misses you and I think you may just miss him wherever you are.

Each day that passes I think I am ready to welcome another dog in our home. The kids want one so badly. They miss the fun and the love that only a dog can bring. I feel like I am ready. But I'm not at the same time. I am afraid of not wanting the dog once it is here, once I can compare it to you. I don't want to fall in love with another dog. I love you, still. I miss you too much to think of any other dog trying to take your spot in the house, in our family, our lives.

It will never happen. No other dog will ever take your spot in my heart Bailey. You are my first, my love, my sweet angel girl. I will think of you everyday until my heart stops beating, and then, I will pray and pray that you will be there waiting for me. Running toward me as we meet again.